有時候，我需要安靜的空間

An adorable kid

Jie Jie miss you Mei Mei!!!!

I miss this girl so much. Although she with me not more than 1 year. But she is so adorable. She is smart. Whatever we did, she will try to act like us. She even know how to dance when music is on! Because of her, I listen back a lots of kids songs. The kids songs are nice to hear also. She like to go playground. She like to eat. FEI MUI ZAI!! =) Whenever with her, I only could feel happiness. That's the kids' power. I remember her last day in my house, I was attending an Anugerah for SPM. I was try to rush back home, but when I reached home, she was gone. Some more her car just in front of me. I got no chance to say goodbye. 

GOODBYE MY DEAR=) 

Hope to see you soon again. 

SPM result day

21.03.2013

SPM result day. Before this day, my heart filled with nervous, my mind filled with worried. Even a minute before I knew my result, I was scared. As I meet my teacher, she told us this year BM pass percentages is dropped and only 7 people get A for Chinese. This two subjects are my weekness. When we went in the hall, teachers are arranging our result. Our first thought, can we steal it? =) Maybe we are too nervous about it. We're waiting, we're talking, we're laughing, but we knew we were nervous all the time. As usual teacher will announce those who get 8As above. But this year quite different, because teacher will calling 8As first. So, when teacher is calling straight As students, my name was called. Thank God!! When I walk to the stage, I heard some teacher say congratz to me. Principal told me how excited she was. Once I stepped on the stage, I start to talking. I'm looking at my mum, she was excited too. How cute she is. haha. Actually, after I get my result slip, I was quite blur. Many people asking, and congratulation. My school's editorial board had done an interview with me. I felt so sorry because can't really answer their question. My weekness still the languages subjects. Finishing all those things, we went to Pavilion for movie and lunch. We used to go to Sushi Zanmai! 

I hope taking result slip is not an end for our friendship. I knew we might not always together like the life in secondary school. We might not have same topics because we have out own school life. We might not have same teacher. But I hope our friendship won't change. 

I really love when they care about me. Thanks for the one who called my mum n me to knew my result. Thanks for caring. I love my teachers. They gave the best for me. No matter is school teachers or tuition teachers, I want to say THANKYOU to them. But I have no chance to tell some teacher. Some I forgot to tell. OMG, forgive my reckless

Here is the pictures on that day. 

I'm lost for my future. 

Like a kid lost her toys.

 Like an adventurer lost his map. 

1st of March

SPM's result will be released soon! 20th of March is the date. OMG! When I get this news from Twitter, I was shocked! I'm so worried now. What I have to do is waiting.  *Pray hard*

RT 'Totally preparing for the worst and hoping for the best.

I'm a superstitious person sometimes. After cny, I could feel bad luck had came to me. But we must be more positive. Once you think you might be bad luck over the year, it may come true. So, should think positively.

-.- I become fatter n fatter. I long time didn't do some sports. I really miss those day I can do some sport at school anytime. Especially first semester, I will have some training for my basketball, run here run there. That's so much fun for me. NOW I always eat, sleep. Sometimes, I really want to do some exercise nearby my house but no people want to accompany me. I miss my teammates now. I like swimming, but seems KL do not have much public swimming pool. What?! That"s my great reason of become fatter.



Anyway, this is just my excuses. I'm saying nonsense.

2013

2013

I want be a better me. Every year I wish I can be better. I'm growing up.

What am I doing now? 

NO working because I'm waiting for my P licence. Why not working? As my mum advices me that it's better not to work at this time if not I have to take leave to learn driving. This might make me very tired. Everyday stay at home waiting. I hope I can get my licence soon! I have learnt my forth lesson. Lesson is completed. But still need to wait for more than two weeks or even more. I wonder why only Monday can test? WHY!! The second reason for not to work is I need plenty of holiday for my CNY. I have to go back two kampung.   I heard my friends who work only have two days holidays? No way! No one at KL. No transportation. A lots of reason here. But I really want to work. After CNY must find a job. I wish I can do those busy work instead of a long-day stand promoter. CHATIME? 

Driving a car? A manual car.

RT "Press clutch, change gear, slowly release, press a bit of gas... SIGHH.. Easier said than done. :\

This is what I feel exactly. 8 hours have went through all those things. So I think I can drive well now. But still feel very nervous when driving. The most scaring thing is traffic jam! I have to keep on release clutch, control the clutch, brake.. My bro tell me nothing to be afraid because we're the one who control the car. The car is not a living things but a machine. Thank for the invention of the auto car. When I get my licence I think I will cry. As I have used many time to get a licence. From listen Undang, Undang test, Amali, 8 hours of driving lesson... So I'm waiting for the test! Maybe have to add 1 more lesson before test. 

These few days can't really sleep well. What happen? 

2013.1.11

Our lovely teacher's retirement. Pn. Ooi, our form 5 class teacher. We went back to school to attend her retirement. Teacher, we love you.

I have the experience of finding job! After school, sinyan, mandee and I were went to Pavilion to find job. "Any part time job vacancy here?" Actually, I was accompanied them only, I won't work at Pavilion because it's too far from my house. I have to take ktm to KL Sentral, take LRT to KLCC and walk around 20 minntes to there. At least 1 hour from my house. If I really work there, I'll be killed by tiredness. Btw, I hav learnt how to find a job. yeah! xD

She can make everyone laugh.

I miss my friends and teachers.

Secondary school life ended.

Hello, DECEMBER. 

I had said goodbye to SPM2012. Hope can get a good result on MARCH 2013. 

My secondary school life is ended officially. I never think of today came so earlier. Time fly. I have grow up. I need a job. As what my friends say, we are officially unemployed. How to find a job? This is a question mark. Seriously, I only work for few hour. I'm not having an official job before. So, it's a great time for me to practise how to serve this world. Honestly, I'm fear to talk with stranger. Never mind, something new is came to me soon. 

Secondly, I must do my driving lesson on this year. Wow, I can drive soon! But, I don't think driving is nice as what I thought when I was a kid. It has to be more careful. Drive safe! 

I miss my friends.My lovely classmates, I miss you guys. We cannot stick together like last time. We tuition, eating, playing, learning, laughing, studying, chit chatting, stalking or even crying together. Friends, don't make me cry again. We will meet again. Sometimes, words cannot express what I feel for them. I hope we are BFF. yeah! The pictures become memories. They make my secondary school life become more colourful. Thank you for their caring, love and sacrifice. I love you guys!

My dirty shoes.

This year last uniform picture.

My life is changed.

Good Luck to my FUTURE♥

Yeah! I'm graduated!! Isn't  a good thing? haha. I do hope so. Maybe will feel sad now. But it's a new beginning for the future. Hey, good luck FUTURE!

Left 4days to #spm.
Just wanna wish myself, GOOD LUCK HOR SHIN!
All the best in spm. ♥

惜

以前, 相机是个很昂贵的东西

现在, 相机变得很普遍, 无论小孩还是大人都可以轻易得到

拿起相机,东拍西拍, 照片太多了,也不太懂得珍惜自己的照片

太多了, 多得无法处理

我就是那位爱东拍西拍的人

果然物以稀为贵

我不想变得  不懂得珍惜 

爱惜 是福

有谁不知道

但又有谁能做到一百分

一个树胶圈 若拉得太紧

最终的结果就是断

不想要这结果?

树胶圈被拉紧了， 放心， 我不让它断， 就多放弃扩张.

Trial is over.

Trial is over. 3 weeks are gone.
6 weeks to exam.
5 weeks end tuition.


Anyway, I think I will get a worse result for trial.
Never mind, I did my best.



No more blaming, guilty, or regret.
It's time to work hard for SPM!



But I just have no more confidence on my language subjects.

Study

I'll study during this holiday.

Study for my trial.

I don't think this few day is enough for me.

Yet, I still wasting the precious time.

Give me some motivation to study!!!!

Suyi"s birthday. =)

Angela's Birthday. =)

Happy Birthday to Yii and lala. Hope you two always pretty, smart and all the best in future. Wishes can't change to words. I had told them my wish. hehe. HAPPY FOREVER=) Love you all.. Muaksss<3 p="p">

28.7.2012

Steamboat Party at Lala's house.

28.7.2012.

Celebration for Yii and Lala birthday.

=)

勇敢

今天，我很勇敢
勇气来至于那股冲动
往往就是需要一股傻气
人才会勇敢
顾虑，担心， 害怕
都是勇敢的绊脚石
但 我还是胆小

PLKN

Just now I was checked the PLKN's result.
At first, I was happy for not choosing me. After think awhile, it might be fun too. So for the second round, you choose me or not also can. But I think I don't feel like wanna go because it take many times. If 1 month then I surely want to go.
OKAY, whatever.

Maaf! Anda tidak terpilih untuk menyertai PLKN Siri 10/2013

Laugh, whenever we can laugh, just laugh it out. Don't bother about others. Ya, you may think I'm weird, but that's me. hehe, haha, hoho, kaka..... 

Sometimes something you never know.

nowadays.

I had joined the chemistry quiz. hmm, so hard.

Went to MBS IU day today. A lots of problems before go to HGH, gosh...

Everybody feels stress, not only you being stress.
People is changed without a word.

I hope everything will end up with a happy moment.

I should persist on everything.

Concentrate on study. Trial is important,  SPM is very important. 

If you're the one who give up in this moment, then you're the stupid.

I will think of the worst situation for all the things before it occur. 

But work hard is what I should do now.

People are start to think about their future.

How about me?

Where should I go after SPM? 

What I interested on? I don't know. 

I'm so scared.. 

The amazing spiderman

A movie that I longing from last year, almost half years I desire to watch. Seriously, just because of this awesome boy, ANDREW GARFIELD. A actor not just only has a good looking, but still have many things that attract me.  The way he speaks, smile, laugh, shy and cry is shown on this movie, The Amazing Spiderman. The first time I noticed him was the movie, Social Network. Okay, just admits that his good looking attracted me first only others comes in. Omg, why are you so charming?


Watch The Amazing Spiderman with my friends in KLCC. I guess they're like him also after watching this. =)





Seriously, tomorrow is exam week, I'm not done my revision yet. I'm just became more lazier after the mid year exam. I will stop all the competitions and sports since teacher was advising me to put more effort in study. I tried my best to balance both sides, but seems people are think of I take less attention on my study. Maybe I just failed to doing both well. Why my language subjects always is my biggest weakness? What can I do for my English and Malay's subject? I always can't write well on my essay part. GRAMMAR! My biggest mistake? Okay, I promised that I will put super big effort on it. Whenever teachers give me a higher expectation, I just felt so stress. Positive stress is a good thing as they said so.  


I realize I always my time on twitter, facebook and Instagram. What do these things bring me advantages?hmmm, I think disadvantage is more than advantage. My eyes is spoiled, need to wear a big spectacles. lol. I just addicted to tweet something nonsense, but sometimes it really can help me to release stresses. But, it will  make me moody also. I just left the unhappy memories on my twitter. People say that we better don't write down any bad memories, just let it leave us. So, I make a big decision, I try to not tweet so much. I'm not even tweeting this two days. I even uninstalled the Twitter's apps in my phone. Seriously, I miss twitterland so much. After this two days, I still always waste my time on my phone. I just less determination on it. Lots of exercise books have't do also. Actually I have a lots of things to do instead of online. Why online so addicted? GIVE ME 100% OF CONCENTRATION. I think I really lack of motivation. I knew that I will go back to twitterland one day or even soon. haha, I'm just have no determination.
Btw, I will control myself for the sake of me.


7th of JULY:

7th of MBS chess competition. 6 rounds of chess drive me mad. Before rest, my rank was number 3. So sad to say after the rest time, I was lost 2 games and I get number 6th for this competition. I regret for not really play well for the 4th and 5th rounds. I should not lose on it. Just take it as a lesson.
hmmm, I'm headache badly on that day because of the aircond hall and the hot weather outside, sudden hot sudden cold. Somemore I will always headache whenever I play chess. My brain just can't focus too long. haiz, my trophy was gone. But, luckily I still can get number 6th which get a medal and RM40. First time get a medal for chess. I think this is first time and the last time because I won't join any chess competition anymore. Just too tired. Chess can be more tire than sport games like basketball.

Why you always ruin my life? I knew, you're came into my life to train me become stronger. I learn to be more independent because do it myself is better than count on you. I'm strong enough to live myself. Just don't act in front of me. I knew who you are. 

We're just not mature enough.

The way we think still so young and simple.

That's just enough for me.

I don't want to grew up. 

I want be forever kid.

Sports day

23th of June is my school's sports day. My last sports day ever. But we make it last but not least. I had represented my blue house for 10 years.Although I had transferred school for few times. I HAVE FATE WITH BLUE. Before the sports day, I had joined merentas desa which I get number 9, Lempar cakera and get gold medal, Softball and get a silver medals. Unfortunately, this year which is our last year of sports day, our venue is 'pulapol', not Cheras stadium as usual. Hmmm, there is quite good, but there is no track. A runner need a track badly.
Today, I had joined 3 events which were 100m, 200m and 4x100m. I prefer short distance as usual. Honestly, before start, my heart full with fear. I fear I will lose.

In the 200m event, I had chosen the front track which is number8. I dislike stand infront because can't chasing people. hmmm, I think this is 'physcology'. I realise when I was run after the 100m, I was slow down. I lack of stamina. Seriously, my ears can't hear any cheer from people.  I always can't hear after vigorous activities. One thing, I like to jump before I run. I really very scared whenever the run wanted to start. I admits that the most tension sport for me is racing.

For 100m, first time join individual. After the 'bizz',  I had to run without thinking so much.

For 4x100m, we were try our best because this was the last event for me, them. I was thinking when are we going to have sports day after this? I had joined sports day for more than 10 years. Isn't the end for me?

Irama event, WAH! first time join leh. Super nervous before start. Felt so sorry because I did some mistakes. We got number 3!

Middle one is me!

LAKSAMANA!!  We got our consecutive 3 years CHAMPION!! My tears almost drop when I hear it. Calm down, and cheer!!!


I'm so happy I can get the honour of best sports woman in 2012 sports day. I had tried my very best on every events. I got 4 golds for individual. I want to thanks my all lovely friends and teachers. Friends' supports is very important in every moment. Their cheers, supports and caring is my most important. I love them! <3

Hey, I'm so ugly in sports day's pictures. TT.

Show some rehearsal pictures before sports day.

Although it comes an end, but the spirit will stay inside our minds.

All the pictures are came from eriko, jiaen and man dee's fb. Thanks. =)

I'm proud to be  one of the LAKSAMANA.